Naya Rivera was just one of the high-profile relationships that rapper Big Sean has been a part of. It’s widely known that Big Sean got into a relationship with singer Ariana Grande while with Naya Rivera. Rivera even wrote about it in her 2016 book Sorry Not Sorry: Dreams, Mistakes and Growing Up. Now that she’s gone, the song continues to haunt Big Sean.
In her book, Naya shared a story about the way Sean treated her during the time of Monteith’s death that gives some insight into why fans of Big Sean and Naya Rivera are finding his past behavior problematic.
“I started to realize that I was dating an incredibly selfish person. I shook Sean awake and told him that Cory had just died. He just said, “Oh man, babe, I’m really sorry about that,” and rolled over and went back to sleep. I was crying and kept coming in and out of the room as I went out into the hallway to make phone calls, and he never got out of bed or even so much as sat up and turned on the light. This still blows my mind to this day.”
She also talked about how the revelation of Sean being selfish also lead to her finding out about his relationship with Ariana Grande, inadvertently. After they got engaged, she said that Sean started to avoid her. She then said she went over to his house and found someone else there.
“Guess what little girl is sitting cross-legged on the couch listening to music? C’mon, people, I’m not going to tell you, but you can guess because it’s not that hard! (It rhymes with “Smariana Schmande,” if you’re really having a hard time.)”
With her passing however, Rivera’s words hit different – and so does Big Sean’s memories, songs and other various recollections about his friend, Naya Rivera. Sitting down for an interview with Vulture, Big Sean spilled how he felt about people turning against his song – and him.
Sean was asked by the interview about the fateful song and if he regrets it in hindsight. It’s clear from his answer immediately that the death of Rivera is still affecting him and how he wants to respect her memory.
“That’s a tough question to answer because I’m still processing a lot of that … I don’t feel comfortable talking about it because I want to respect her. She’s made such an impact on people, and she’s done so many great things in her life and her career that it was hurtful to even have that [song] be associated with her. It wasn’t a diss to her.”
What may come as a shock to many is the news that the song wasn’t a diss towards her and in fact, Sean played the song for her and she liked it.
“I truly made the song and played it for her. She knew about it, and she liked it,” he told the interviewer. And though no one knows the future, Sean seemed to have started to come to terms with Rivera’s absence and acknowledge the fact that both of them were young and had grown past all of their strife.
“We had a breakup that was very public, and we were young and we forgave each other and moved on from that. If I would have known something this tragic would have happened, I would have never made the song.”
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Rest In Peace Naya, God Bless your Soul! Thank you for blessing us all with your talent and presence. you are a hero! Not just because of how you saved your son, also because of the barriers you knocked down for so many people to make them feel confident in themselves and to stand tall and be proud when they couldn’t achieve that on their own. I appreciate and cherish everything that ever happened between us for making me wiser and a better person. I’m still grieving and in shock, I can’t believe this is real. I’m praying for you and your family and I know your watching over them and protecting them. Rest In Peace Naya 💙🙏🏾